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It's been a long time since I've written a journal. I may have the gift of gab and tend to be long winded, but I'm not always up for talking and certainly not very good at public speaking and writing journals. I figure I owe it to all my friends and watchers who have so wonderfully supported me over the years to why I'm submitting more digital art than photos lately. And I promise, I'll do my best not to be long-winded in my explanation.
Basically it's along the same ole lines as I've been posting over the years. It all comes down to health. I had to have an emergency hysterectomy in 2012 after battling with severe repercussions to my well being because the doctors weren't listening to what was wrong. Two years later, I found out I have Hashimoto's and again, this time over a decade, of requesting blood tests every year and the doctors telling me it's all in my head, they finally listened. But not before it had such detrimental, even life-threatening, affects on my health. These things caused challenges with the nerve damage I've got from back and neck problems. It's been a long road but I feel like I'm finally able to gain a little bit more control over my life again. I've had to learn to live in a new way and have had to dive deep into learning about living with an autoimmune disorder. I'm still learning that one.
The way that this has effected my photography is that I can't walk much now. I barely leave the house and have to use a mobile cart to shop. Because of all this, I became depressed and eventually lost my photo mojo, as well as art. It's been hard to stay upbeat. I'm a free spirit and begin to fall apart and whither when caged. My health problems have caged me. Art and photography help me. I need to create things. When those things go caput, I go nuts. Have you ever seen a caged bird go nuts? They start to pull out their feathers and begin to resemble Marty Feldman.
Anyhoo ... Something sparked recently and I feel like I've got a little bit of that mojo back. Don't know how long it will last, but I've decided to ride the wave while it's there. I realized that I may not be able to get out and take pictures like I used to, but I can't try to get back into still life and macro right in my own home and I can still do some digital art. I haven't been too inspired lately in the photography department, but sure am in digital art. I'm learning things I've always wanted to do and loving it.
So now, was that too long winded?
I hope all is well with you all. Thank you for your kindness and support over the years. It means more than you know.